haiyo i m back from tuition. k boxed today. emptied my wallet. i bht one of my text bk. but i havent unwrap it. so fileld with anticipation. it says basic pathology. sia la damn tirin la tuition.. i want massage i want tuktuk i want laddy...haha nah
but thats just cool. ok i m the og ic. .haha i duno but somehow saying that alone tickles me. i think many things tickle when a) u are on a holiday 2) u got no job 3) u dun ve to mug (not necessarily true)
so nobody wants to be with me.. three of my og mates claim they have transfered ogs which is just cool i like my og small.. less ppl to deal with. more interaction space. really. and i m actuali this bored that such news appear on my blog. ie occupy my thts. sheesh
u know wad i wanna do. i wanna design my own house. better yet build my own house. i wish i can afford land. and then do abit of carpentry contractin archeitecture and viola build my own hous.e. wun that be cool? own deco? own idea.. ok maybe borrow thomas' as in thomas heatherwic the GOD.. crap i worship him.
perhaps perhaps perhaps. but i think i can do a gd job too. my artistic talents have surpassed my imagnations time and agn. right sayin that in itself was the least artistic thing i eevr done. but i believe given time i can design a nice loft with a theme.. or multiple themes.. and i bet i can do it relatively cheap. i have seen so many aretfacts and handicrafts and furniture pieces overseas that are really unique and plain funky to have at home (tho my mum would shoot them down. what a waste of space? why u buy this and that? shudders) becos they take up space. heh like the way i use electricity and the oxygen at home by not doin ath.
its not that i havent done it b4 i painted my own room yellow and tried to do some pattern yeah the spunky color gloria commented on facebook. my mum detests yellow.. but oh well
the reason why i brt this up is cos my new students house is gdness the nicest house i have evr stepped into. crap so unfair. its not jus thte exterior.. the exterior is really classy greyish bricks..lots of glasdoors and slidind panels.. lots of staircase.. i read this book once its called the art of staircases.. crap that book is the nicest piece of art i have seen. we take stairs for granted but really stairs are sth to be marveled at! .. and the interior.. is just perfect..it has a bookshelf that is like 5 to 6 m high decked with books. u oni see that in harry potter man! i bet the dad is some archeitect or interior designer..and they are really affluent i see.. man, whole collections of books and golfing quipments.. so unfair.. their house is really just nice. no other words to describe. hais hais hais. now i have no qualms abt the feees im chargin.. its not expensive just slightly higher
sigh but i m sick of my job really. sick of starin into space as time crawls by. hais
i did laps today. yeah went library.. and i met ok i didnt meet.. i was doin laps and i saw a familiar bright blue colour in the water ..that trunks.. the vj comp trunks.. haha marcus type of color.. and yeah that pair of trunks which i left at ntu.. i stopped my laps and i went over.. it was ding wen.. haha
and we talked for a long time..not bad actuli managed to catch up with somene at the pool. can u beleive it.. i have finish first yr of uni. wow. ok stop being in awe makes u sound like an idiot. move on. but i havent slacked in a swimming pool in a log time..just chill and talk. really have very little chance..he told me he has me takin time off to swim for hisunit and winning many golds..he say the standard is crap haha..
soon enuff all my frens are gonna ord man.. and then enter the next phase of life. ding wen said that the life skills army taught can be learnt anywhere..army is really a waste of time..learn nothing..and the time robbed away from us cannot be returned.. and summore they are yrs of our prime. wel i guess with enuff ministers children enterin.. NS time may be shorten soon enuff.. one day u can buy urself out of ns.. hah say if u pay 1k a mth to not do NS i think lots of ppl will do it. i mean he told me all he does in army is pluck a ffew weeds here and ther when some big shot is comin.. too much beaucracyin army..to much fakeness and pretence. imena army is prob nothtat bad but very few ppl are doin the real stuff.. most are just pretendin to be occupied.
and life is unfair. i was having an epiphany haha ok nah it wasnt an epiphany..i just like sayin that.. and its not new really after tuition that day.. i tht the kid was really lucky. he was super rich. hismum kinda cowers him. and i went to whitesnds..ok i m lucky too its just a differnt..
i see sales man shop keepers dressed in shirts and tie.. sellin their products.. or loads of ppl rushin for buses and trains at the interchange.. packin dinner home. and that marks the end of another day. so where does all this life lead? day after day u gonna werk till u die people. life is going to be meaningless. ure going to werk for ur children who willbe as miserable a few yrs down. and the oni break u can possibly get from werkin doesnt start with R. no its not retirement..its prob cancer, heart disease blocked arteries or sth to the likes.
i wouldn be einstein if i said life sucks. becos we all know that. everyone is just werkin their ass off.. sigh why are we all alive? wads the purpose of life.. i tht a smart frens told me once..its becos ppl believe in hope. they werk so their kids canhave a better future. they believe in the future..same reason why a bunch of chinese came to singapore to settle aka our forefathers.
well that just not cool. ok i cant waait for sch to start.
All alone in my room, think of you at a rate that is truly alarming I keep looping my memories of you in my head, I pretend that you want me And I fall asleep and dream of alternate realities And I put myself at ease by pretending that she still loves me
And I can't stop thinking about you And I can't stop thinking about you You'll never go, what do I do? And I can't stop thinking about your love
Ohh, yeah
I can't believe I could think that she would just follow me everywhere I go I just wrestle with you in my dreams and wake up making love to a pillow And I fall asleep and dream of alternate realities And I put myself at ease by pretending that she still loves me
And I can't stop thinking about you And I can't stop thinking about you You'll never go, what do I do? And I can't stop, and I can't stop
What I would give to have you look in my direction And I'd give my life to somehow attract your attention And I touch myself like it's somebody else Thoughts of you are tattooed on my mind, let me show you
And I can't stop thinking about you And I can't stop thinking about you You'll never go, what do I do? And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you And I can't stop thinking about you You'll never go, what do I do? And I can't stop thinking about you
haha i think any guy can relate to the funny lyrics of the first paragraph.. actuali second stanza as well
well i m doin t shirt again.. or rather still. got new student later.. teachin bio..ha i find it funy when ppl ask if i can teach bio.. esp after i told them my major and they ask..so u can teach bio? i guess maybe not. crap i sound like a cocky bastard.
school is starting..and i kinda look forward to it. i dunno. i guess my perception changes fast. i m feelin better now.. cos this is what i m addicted to. doing many things.. i m reading my bio notes, studyin drivin..plugged into southpark channel and listening to maroon 5 and tryin to blog. see we may be south east asians but we are no cambodians.. maybe we are less than vietnamese.. but i cant live if i do oni one thing at a time i thk.. so addicted to this form of multitasking..that i will feel meaningless if i have to say wait for the bus with no music in my ears.. and if u thk abt it..we are really pathetic.
so i feel whole now becos i do ve a lot to do.. and hopefully if i get my photos soon enuff i ll need to sort them..sort y music..sort my new notes yeah cramping. its always abt cramping.. do as much as possible. not time for rela king.
haha i thk i tell my story a lto of time alr. to at least 5 ppl alr.. my travel stories. ha ok its just the guys and min and shi hui and a bit of other ppl.. bleagh i m not gonna talk abt my trip alr. haha bleagh i see the army guys plannin their hols..places to travel. that look in their eyes..i so recognise it.. the anticipation.te oh there is qutie alot ot do look..damn i will love to plan a trip too haha maybe philipines jp china korea? haha crap. ok just philipines and jp..
yay i m addicted to the new maroon 5 cd.. i got it.. special thai edition oni 12 bucks.. but its exactly the same..haha damn i shuld bht likin park in bkk too i m bored. well not really.. spent the night doin the logo for the medicamp t shirt.. it looks borin but not easy to make k haha
bleagh i got a lot of tuition offers but everyone is still considerng..but iw orry that i wun be able to cope..cos tuition is logn term will drag till sch starts one..hais.. but its ok la.. i prob do less sch stuff next yr.. less hall stuff.. haha shrugs
yay i got presents from europe haha.. one from 4 countries.. min very thtful ah..
i should learn a song.
I’m sick of picking the pieces And second-guessing My reasons why you don’t trust me Why must we do this to one another?
We are just passionate lovers With trouble under the covers Nothing worse than when You know that it’s over
I just need a little of your time A little of your time To say the words I never said Just need a little of your time A little of your time To show you that I am not dead
Please don’t leave, stay in bed Touch my body instead I'll make you feel it Can you still feel it? I’ll make you feel it Can you still feel it?
Well I’ve got nothing to hide Dip down and come for a ride I’m racing the devil, so sly You cannot hear him coming
‘Cause my defences are weak I have no breath left to speak So take my evidence And bury it somewhere
I just need a little of your time A little of your time To say the words I never said
Just need a little of your time A little of your time To show you that I am not dead
Please don’t leave, stay in bed Touch my body instead I’ll make you feel it Can you still feel it? I’ll make you feel it Can you still feel it?
Oh my, I don’t mind Being the other guy Nice try, for these games I do not have the time If you want me, call me Come and take a risk (kiss) Leave somewhere deep under the surface
I just need a little of your time A little of your time To say the words I never said Just need a little of your time A little of your time To show you that I am not dead
Please don’t leave, stay in bed Touch my body instead I’ll make you feel it Can you still feel it? I’ll make you feel it Can you still feel it? I’ll make you feel it Can you still feel it? I’ll make you feel it Can you still feel it?
right i feel bored. i took my mum's student today cos she wasnt feelin well. sigh it been barely a day home. i tht i be glad to be home at last. no i mean i m.. its just that i feel bored.. shuldi get back to werk..
take on new students..sigh but thoe ae long commitments ve to carry to yr 2.. which i guess is fine really.. shrugs..
school school is startin.. in a way i m fine with it.. haha feel like takin my books out to study alr or revise..yucks. but i know i wun be able to pull such a stunt off (you can say reality is sinking in.)
nah i m really not lookin forward to sch..hais goin back to hall and all.. medicamp..gasp.. jsut thinkin abt ti is exhaustin..
i feel like i m the only enthu person ard here. who doesnt want to waste the hols..i want to get out and meet ppl but i guess everyone has their own commitments
sometimes it feels like everything fades into nothingness.. everything enters ur memory.. and then nothing.. i dunno maybe i feel hollow.. i meet alotof ppl in the trip..ppl i will never see in singapore.. ppl who ve real stories to share
the french doc who does community werk all over third world country settin up cheap clinics the war veteran who claims he is leadin his second life now for his kids..to be able to say things like" my old self has died..this is my new life.." is not sth many with enuff life experience or maturity can say..yeh sure many ppl say tht when they gone thru failure..or turnover a new leaf..all that heap abt leadin anew life.. but comin frow a war veteran who lost ath..its jsut different gravity.
and there is the tour guide who has done everything..and cant wait to set up his own company..his job is accomapnyin ppl like us to mountain bike kayak and stuff how cool is that..he said he has done everything b4 inlife..his dad was a farmer..he werked as mine clearer..haha said that his wife was miss luang prabeng 3.. 3rd runner up haha butnow after givin birth to his kid very fat and naggy haha and he sprained his wrist cos she was nagging at him for comin home drunk so he punched some furniture haha..
and there was the korean elementary tcha who traveled alone..who told me i was really ucky to have traveled so many places at sucha young age.he was very impressed by the number of lang we ould speak in sg... and yeah we talked alot..was pleasant
and there was the german couple who have been travelin for 6 mths and will do so for another 6 mths..they rented their apartmetns out for a yr and quitted their jobs just to travvel...to chill allover the world meet ppl..they welcomed the locals' warmness and claim that th chinese were really rude ppl.. they are travellin half the world in a yr..
and there was haha.. i was trg on phuket beach..yeah i actuali did some bi trg..and later i just warn down i swam quite far out..angered e locals..cos it was dangerous..the currents were huge..
there was this girl and her fren who were playin by themselve..it was gettin dark so there was oni three of us ..she asked if i was japanese? thai? haha noone thks i m singaporean and they seem disappointed when i mneither jap or thai.. i said nah sngaporean.. then she asked u "you got gf?" "nope" "you lying" "haha ok maybe" "u here alone first time in phuket" "yeah first time.. tho my passport has another phuket stamp i dun remember bein in phuket at all.. erm yeah first time ot alone another guy fren" "where ur fren" "he readin on shore" "where? where ccall him here wads he name?" "eh aloy haha he got gf" "gf not here nvm haha..where him tell him come see u got girl" and whoa she closed in and i shant give explicit details "where u stayin in phuket" "erm guesthouse fam inn" "orh one room two men?" "yeah" "u one room two mmen i cant find u tonight"
haha we carried on playin.. she said her dad was singaporean she werked as a cashier in bangkok. 20 yrs old now.. she had a really nice bod and great smile.. i told her it was gettin dark..i wanted to swim out firther and we separated..her fren keft at dunno which stage of our convo.. i never saw her agn.. it was hmm awkwardly nice..but ok forbidden. haha waddehell
and i was thinkin the day b4 at the airport.. well i could get no sleep so i was thinkin and i sarted pennin my thts see the airport is where the world is brt to u..u meet all sorts of people.. the good the bad the ugly really.. there are lots of beautiful i shuld use the word creatures at airports..
aloy was takin abt settlin down..compromisin in a relationship and all that stuff..findin one girl and stickin to her..like how he is doing in admitedly it is sth envy worthy
but i dunno its like shoppin for shoes.. there are always right and worng pairs no..good and bad purchases..discounts that u miss.. shoes that are overprced..shoppin for the right pair of shoes can take forever..or csn be impulsive and a good pair really last for years
and itht abt how i shopped for that damn pair of shoes haha.. i tht it was good and attractive.. but decided i shuld take the train to the other malls look at other options..in the endi decided to return to it..oni to be told that the shoes was for ladies..haha screwed up..i actuali rushed back b4 the shop closed haha
ok no i m not gay in i dun get the wrong sex all the time.. and freakin that pair of shoes were nice..if it was obviously female aloya nd i would have realsied..so much for havin to defend myself hahas
anw back to the topic.. yeah there are so many ppl in the world..where one smile can blow u away.. who makes u feel like the world is the right place to be in.. how do u know.. sure i mm still young lots of time..no need to hurry.. i mn ot really tho i m turnin 21 next yr..(cannot kill ppl freely alr) but the qn is more of whether we need to get attached.. to settle down as aloy says.. like the french doc who traeled the world obviously he cant have a fam.. i would love to travel the worl donmy own or with frens for a long time.. really.. backpck till i m old and rottin or soggy overboiled and cabaggy..
how do u k now if someoneis right.. how do u know u wun be lonely just cos u have a fam at a ripe old age.. fine u may have kids to support u but u will want ur own life .. if u fine good like minded bachelor frens.. i guess we can travel forever..
cohabittin is not a bad idea either.. if u find someone u liek enuff but not enuff to marry.. afterall she might oni need someone to kill the cockroaches in the house.. so m aybe finding the one is really passe cos see i could meet have sth as insincere as i like in phuket .. there are wants.. at this point of time i m starin into a massage parlour..for 13 bucks at the airport its a good deal.. but stillits an extravagance.. so massage or no massage..damn nick u re fickle.. ucant make up ur mind..
i like to think i got all the time in the world..but we all know gd stock depletes..and time is. well time is not a real quantity. i gotta stop livin my life the way i see otehrs live it. for my door doesnt get knocked on everyday.
well i m back home. its been a good long 27 days did a lotof crazy shit.. woke up in my bed today..pleasant really..beas anyhow hotel or guesthouse bt then again thats of course..we spend an average of 7 sing a night on accomodation..dirt cheap.. reallly
no more tutuk driver hounding for a while. "you want tutuk? sir where u from?" "sir u want lady?..sir i m girl! sir there all gay bar u follow me.. i bring u u want pingpong? banana?" "sir i know this place very well sir.. where u from i give u best price" "sir u want massage?"
haha yeah you geet to laugh ur assoff at these quirks every single day haha and its spken with a gopalakrishnone accent
haha imagine uwere a bmt sergeant and ur recruit says..sgt u want massage? haha
ok and then there are those funny singaporeans who sound really horrible with their bad english and immaturity..crap
maybe it is an inherent thing to not like ourselves but i really cant stand my comrades haha
bleagh i want photos.. my cam spoilt in vietnam
phuket rocked haha i bungy jumped..haha got certificate..so scary 60 m is lik ejumping off a 24 storey buiding look out jump and open ur arms haha
holy..haha damn scary.took a damn long time to get off the crane haha
and then we went snorkellin which was nice too.. there is so much to do now.. earn money haha.. sigh inertia is high tho..and thats whenu know u re back home.